Moving On

Two words that is very easy to say "Move On!" yet it is so hard to do, why? It is because we still cling on to the memories of what we did previously especially if those memories were the good one. Well i personally classify moving on equal to 5 stages of grief ( Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance).

Trust me it is a painful process, but in my experience it was the pain that made me value the process and learn so many things from it, but then again different person would experiences different process and there are some who don't want to move on at all and get stuck.

I had my share of this process not so long ago, i was depressed almost reached a state of nervous break down because i simply wanted to give up on life, but i did not give up, why? Simple reason, I wanted to know what's gonna happen next in my life if i face the "demon" inside of me, i believed in myself again with the help of those who truly care about me, i was really lucky.

So when you are in a really emotional stage and feel that you are falling down on your knee you may savor your depression momentarily only and then get up, promise yourself that you are going to face this difficult situation that you are in now, stand up and make your baby steps to moving on. In the beginning it will be hard to move on, but you'll definitely able to move on and realize that it isn't as bad as you might think.

I know you are sad right now, but trust me it will be better i promise...

March for marching forward

Oh this is quite ridiculous i haven't write for more than two month since the last time i wrote, in the past two months i wrote manually, yeah i wrote a journal (manly way of saying i keep a diary) it actually really helped me a lot to deal with a lot of things happened in my surrounding, and somehow i enjoyed writing manually i could feel the emotion and thoughts when i read my journal.


So here's what happened for the past two months since my absence from blogging, i finally graduate from my post graduate school (hooraaah) now i officially hold a master degree title. I have let go, moved on and made peace with my ghost of the past starting a new life with a blank page where i hoped to be filled with more exciting adventures in my life.

Tense situation arise during my absence for a month, emotions are boiling here and there even from afar i could feel it, i did my best to ease the situation from afar although i was doing it in a secretive manner, because this time i did put all of my best effort to save the family i have and i work better alone. I really am sorry if my action do create some misleading gesture, i did all of those with good intention not the other way around.

Thankfully the tense situation has been resolved, it will take some time until everything are back to normal, but based on my observation it is progressing in a swift manner far beyond my expectation. I really am proud with the progress of those who i considered as my family here.

I myself personally made a lot of progress to be a better person, i already am a better person, i aim to be even more better person than  i am now.

Let go of the Past march forward to the Future but don't forget to enjoy the Present

December Lantern

I know it's already January 2010 now, but i haven't write anything for my December so here's how my December went :

1. I met my sister after four years not seeing her
2. I went to Bali and had the most awesome moment in my life
3. I met several of my old friends co-incidentally
4. I had experience the most beautiful thing in my life (let's just say i have an inspiration due to the aid of certain medium that has the ability to ignites inspiration via natural resource *wink)
5. I had a truly unforgettable moment back at home because of you

At first i was a little bit reluctant to go back home and spend my holidays in JKT, but that is all about to change until i met Lumina, as corny as this might seems to be  i really had wonderful moments with Lumina another co-incidental? I don't think so, here's why; i had someone to do an astrological reading on me back on September 2009 and my question was "Will i find someone that suits me?" she did my horoscope reading and her reading say "You will find that particular someone in December" at first i was "Yeah right!" being skeptic about this whole astrological reading. But you know what it came true!

Is this faith? That was my first question to myself, but I'm not gonna tell you more about Lumina now, you'll just have to wait and see what will happen. Lumina makes me feel really good about myself and most importantly she made me happy.